Healing Conversation

I was browsing with Hanzy at the bookshop today during lunchtime when I came across one book, "HEALING CONVERSATION". It is not just about what to say when you do not know what to say. I believe the content will be very interesting. As a matter of fact, it should offer great comfort for those who are dealing with or going through periods of sadness, loss, pain or anger. Its just like a first aid kit for times when words are hard to come by. When you need to speak with someone who is going through moments when things gone wrong or amiss and when matters of heart is concerned.

I could not wait till after office hour. Nope, Im not going to buy that book yet. I had done a search on the library website and found that the book is available at the library near my place. So I went to the library after work and am so glad that I managed to get it!

I will buy the book if its really helpful. I think it will be. For my jobscope, I meet people who are distressed everyday. Talking to these people need lots of patience and understanding because they are seeking assistance and advices. They are mostly stuck in their realm of uncertainties and desperations. It can be mentally exhausting everyday. I need detachment. I want to learn how to support others without fixing, rescuing or judging.

The Singapore Idol Moment

I was not into this initially. I did not even know who is who. Until the last 4 contestants were left, then I started to listen to their voices and songs. Pretty impressive I can say, my opinion. I like Paul Twohill. And was abit sad that he was voted out. I always prefer the male vocal compare to the female. I do not know why. Especially those husky voices, like Jonathan's. Hady is good that I feel that its OK that he is not going to win the Singapore Idol title. He has the performer's instinct born in him. So natural. Jonathan seems less expose, in my opinion. But his husky, unique voice won all over. While I am waiting for the results to announce... Thats it!

Hady Mirza is the winner of the Singapore Idol II... !!!

Check out this link http://www.singaporeidol.com

I will not forget to look for the Mee Rebus/Soto and Satay stall uncle very very soon... To send congrats to him that his son has made it to the title and Im going to ask him to belanja me satay!

A Slack Day

Oh Yeah. I spent the whole day sleeping. Its like not having to get my sleep for such a long time. Its not norm for me to sleep like that unless Im sick. Im just too tired. I thought of going back to office to clear some work but in my dream. You can see, I even dreamt about work. Isnt this horrible?!?

I was supposed to go out with Hanzy. To get our eyebrows trimmed at Little Indian, using the traditional threading method. Hanzy said that it was not very painful and the outcome has been good. I noticed that but I have not let anyone trimmed my brows before. I do it myself all the time. So as Im freakingly slack today, since last night after I came from the play, I was thinking not going to do it. Hanzy was tired too but unsure if he went on his own at the end. Melissa called me in the afternoon to ask me out. We had planned before to go to Marks and Spencers for shopping. I again turned her down. Oh my... what a day like that. Felt wasted and unaccomplished.

I just ordered KFC via phonecall. I needed to wait for about an hour for the delivery. Hmmm. Tummy groaning. Hungry and wasted.

...happenings!

Alright. So we cannot eat bread anymore because it contains too much preservatives. So what are we supposed to do? A friend told me to get the breadmaking machine. How many chances do I have to make my own bread, seriously! Oh Gosh! And another problem with SK II skincare products. Scientists and researchers claimed that their products contained some chemicals that are very harmful to our body. So is it a scare or for real? Im wondering how our local counterparts are responding. I must go to town and check out those SK II beauty counters. Recently I was just contemplating whether to try out their products. Hmmm. Thank God that I manage to save those money.

Anyway, Im looking forward to tomorrow night. Im going with Melissa and Verena to watch a play called FUNDAMENTALLY HAPPY. Its about Eric, a 30-year old social worker who returned to his childhood neighbourhood, visited the home of his old neighbour, Habiba, where the couple was still living there, older and with children. As Eric and his old neighbour Habiba reminisced about old days, a shocking secret was revealed that would forever change their lives.

FUNDAMENTALLY HAPPY takes an unflinching look at the personal and emotional issues surrounding paedophilia, without judgement or blame. Trusted neighbour or a family friend are often people we would entrust our children to without much of a second thought. As the play traces the emotional and personal issues that arised after a secret was revealed, the implications for a wife and a mother who was also a friend of the perceived 'victim', started to surface. Questions about trust, integrity and honesty that exists in a friendship, explores issues such as memory, justification, consent and possible legal implications of paedophilia.

So we will be watching the play at 8pm next night, probably get some dinner near our workplace before that. Also hopefully that I can clear some work before I go off. Yeah. Always about work. What can I say... ...

N DEY SAY

I came back from work and turned on the radio. I heard this song on Class 95 and I was sure that I must get this song. I fell in love with this song because of the lyrics and also it has a remixes of PM DAWN, Set Adrift By Memory Bliss. So I went to Class 95 website and check out the now playing songlist and it just hit me right off. I was grinning ear to ear to learn that its by Nelly. One of my favourite RnB artistes.


N Dey Say

Hmmm... Nelly... One of my fav RnB artiste.

Smell Of Rain.. and my ArtyFart feelings.

I watched the movie SMELL OF RAIN (http://smellofrainmovie.com/) yesterday with 3 of my colleagues at THE ART HOUSE (http://www.theartshouse.com.sg/home.html).
It was my first time there, originally was the Old Parliament House. It has a nice arty ambience which I fall in love with. It reminds me of the days when I was studying at LaSalle-SIA College of Arts. I used to draw and paint very much. I did not know why I stop suddenly. I guess its the demand and changes in certain aspect of life. But my love for arts will never die.

Personally I like the mandarin movie very much. It is simple story about a lonely young man, Xiao Qi who was trapped in his childhood grief of being abandoned by his mother, on a night before the rain started. It was that smell before rain which he hated as it would remind him of such unhappiness. He had a childhood best friend, Kong Long who shared the world of their own. Then a girl, Li Er appeared that brought along remembrance of love and pain into their lives. At the end of the story, what it wanted to convey is to find the courage for new love and hope and to put the past behind so as to carry on with new life.

It was the last day of screening so I am not sure if it will be shown anywhere again. Maybe it might be released on VCD or DVD. Its worth to watch if you like something slow and melancholy.

Happiest People

The happiest people do not bother about whether life is fair.
They just make the most what they have.

The Clip That Makes Me Cry

This is not a new song but everytime I hear it, I will feel like crying. And if I watch the video clip, it makes me feel worse.

How do you feel?
Is there any particular song that makes you cry?



TONG HUA by GUANG LIANG

The video clip that always makes me cry.

Inner Self

From youtube, I saw this clip which was done by a local guy. I like the way he expressed. And the music is nice too. He seemed to be looking for his inner self. Then again its abit draggin at the end. Putting it up here to share.


Untitled

Here is a video clip about our inner self.

Is this funny?

I was surfing youtube when I saw this clip and decided to add it here.
I guess the boys were trying to be funny or purposedly trying to insult our country if it sounds serious. What kind of humour is this when you play a fool with the NDP and the president? And daringly play the National song in the background.
I read from the comment that these boys had been charged.
So its funny or not?


NDP

Is this funny?

OVERLOADED

No space to move.
No space to breathe.
I cant finish.
Yet it keeps coming.

Countless stares.
Uncommunicative.
Endless sympathies.
Some undeserving.

Caught in the ocean of grief.
Gripping the waves of energy.
Trying and trying.
Looking for that metamorphosis.

PROMISE, NEVER

BURNT BY A PROMISE
SOMETHING WHICH NEVER LEARNT
A LESSON TAUGHT NOT ONCE
NEVER TO TRUST
DESPERATE TO LOVE
EAGER FOR LUST
LONELINESS ENGULF
PROVOCATIVELY PRETTIFY
PICKING UP PIECES
CARRYING ON SOMEHOW
TRY TAPING THEM
MOVING ON WITH LIFE

~~~ Tearing Lust ~~~

In lust we trust that blinding passion
Building from pent up rages
Sending signs through our skin and senses
Thrusting blindly into a trance-like motion

In love we doubt of our mind together
All greatness of things seem disturbed
Lively emotions faded and worries started
Wanting badly as hope crushes

In need we ask for lust that was once there
Seamlessly blended with time and tide
Intentionally yearning for limitless
Waiting tiredly tear this disguise

In lost we leave and giving up on everything
Once it was blooming but now has gone
The flower of hope has died leaving nothing
Absently forgotten without tracing...

One More Try

I have been spending hundred of hours reading people's blogs.
How about mine?

Well, I guess Im just too lazy to really get started. So I called this ONE MORE TRY. Hopefully I can get something out of my mind. Squeeze my brain juice to come out with something nice. Or at least.

We (human) are born to make mistakes. Major or minor is not that important. The consequences and the aftermaths, the responsibilities are the things that we should bear. Think again, if you know that what you going to do would become a major mistake, and you might not be able to answer for it, would you still take that step? Some people I have known would not ponder about it. They live by the moto, JUST DO IT. So what if the sky falls down on them, I would tell them to make sure they would not be crying or go away hiding. Or expect some other people to carry the baggages for them.

Many people walk around with a life, always thinking that it is meaningless. Or probably they have not been awake for a long time. Mistakenly doing things that are not important at all, or chasing after the wrong ones. So what is the purpose and meaning of having a life? Remember that we only live once. That does not mean we squander it away.

The society has been driving me increasingly insane. Having to know what should be done and what should not did not bother me too much now somehow. If I were to let them get into me, I might as well vanish from this earth sooner. Think about it again. Firstly, be responsible. Secondly, be purposeful. Thirdly, take it easy. Thats how I live my life to be, while I can. And pray religiously. He is watching somewhere.

Feelings of Last Day

Last day of 2005.

A few things had happened. Surrounding me and my family.

Something that tremendously affected my lifestyle. At least for now.
A death had taken place in my family. And a few deaths in my friends' families.
All the sadness in the air which has not gone yet and it struck again!
I just could not believe but it all had happened.